Now We Wait
During this long journey we had started to grow relationships with new friends and neighbors. We shared similar stories of pregnancy, miscarriage, and infertility. I believe God places the right people in your lives just at the right time. We came to know another couple who shared in the some similar experiences and also had stories of how adoption had touched their family. Matt was adopted as a child along with two of his other siblings. Our new friend also was also very thankful for being adopted and we bonded over this wonderful gift.
We started to meet more local friends who had either adopted or were adopting. From China and Korea to Utah and Arizona. So many people were finding a selfless love in their hearts that they wanted to give to a child in need. Some families just opened their homes for a short time so that foreign children with special needs could one day find their forever family. Even with adoption in our family were had never been exposed to more adoption stories than at this time. God was whispering and I was kicking and screaming NO! Not me, I could never, I don’t want…..
As confusing as it was to feel pulled in different directions we patiently went through the rounds of infertility treatment we felt we needed to try. We were thankful to have the opportunity to use these facilities for so much less than if we would have lived elsewhere and we wanted to make sure we gave it a chance before moving on.
I wanted to push off any possibility of adoption until it was my last resort, however my prayer was that God would turn my heart to his will and give me peace in my circumstances no matter what happened. I needed to begin to trust, walk by faith, and hope for my miracle. I knew that this story would have a redemptive ending but I didn’t know how that was going to happen. And right now I still am not sure know how that is going to happen exactly.
After multiple failed attempts with IUI we prayerfully considered IVF and came to the conclusion that it was not for us. My heart still longed for a biological baby of my own and it hurt to think that might never happen again. We knew where God was leading us, even if we felt incapable, unsure, and fearful! We know that with God all things are possible (Matthew 19:26) and that if we just take one small step of faith He will answer.
So with that, we are excited (and scared, I’m mean yes all the emotions) to announce that we have officially started the adoption process and are looking forward to bringing home another little one to grow our family! We are hoping that our one step of faith, that feels inadequate and so small, God will use for good and he will be glorified through our story! As emotional and hard as this journey has been, God gives us unexplainable peace. There are still hard days and writing this has been a bit of an emotional rollercoaster but it’s our story. I’m hopeful that it will be a blessing to others to read who have gone through a similar journey.
We cannot be more thankful for your continued prayers as we walk this new adventure. We will be sharing updates along the way and are excited to have you a part of this journey. For regular updates follow along on Facebook or Instagram. We would love to hear from you if you have been down a similar journey or are finding yourself in the middle of the same hard season. Know we are praying for you!
How Can You Help?:
- Pray!!! For our future little one, for the birth mom, for patience and wisdom along the journey
- If you are local we are accepting gently used items for an upcoming garage sale
- Purchase a box of cards from our first fundraiser: https://vimeo.com/251321730
- Purchase a Premium Starter Kit from Young Living: http://bit.ly/YLamycampbell
- Watch for upcoming tax deductible donation option and t-shirt sale